SCHOOL FUCK'D ME UP...

For all the fantastic things that studying brings to your life, it does not bring easy times.


People might ask, “What is going through your tiny little mind to make you study again at the age of 43?” Humbly I would say, “Self growth… self growth.” But we all know that is bollocks and only seen in movies. Here is the actual reason. I have a long term goal of helping people, I have spent my entire life helping and working with people,loving them and providing comfort. I always wanted to be a doctor but not a doctor in the organic sense if that actually makes sense? I wanted to help people without going through seeing the blood and sores etc etc.

Since my stroke decided that I need to set in action a means of achieving my goal.In true style, one night it just came to me what I want to do. So I have started the beginning of my journey and I am doing what I set out to do. The course itself is run out of Athabasca University, in Alberta correspondence and self study with access to any material required over the internet and a practical examination locally.

OK, now that I have elaborated on boring sh*t, this is why the post is important. I have come to the conclusion that self study is possibly the MOST retarded option I could have taken being a woman who needs to ask a lot of questions and values human interaction.

I was recently asked to do some work for a company and a lot of responsibility falls on my shoulders. In addition to this, all I want is to go online and play with my Boyfriend [commonly known as {HP Pavilion Entertainment]; the very word Entertainment implies FUN. I want to read stories return emails to my entire roster of lovable fans, and nurture it, and hopefully I can play with it… (smile on face) I want to be able to go meet up with my gal-pals for dinner and drinks and general debauchery. Do you think studying allows me to do this?

Every time I want to study [I use the term ‘want’ very loosely] I find EVERY conceivable reason on the face of the planet not to! It’s as though my study books have viruses and other things considered gross by society and I have a natural aversion to the fucking things.
I am trying flipping hard but always seem to have distractions! I have another 1000 pages to get through including Math… WHAT IS THAT!?! [Said for emphasis – not being literal there :-)] Its a long road to travel.