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I'm just odd, overly sarcastic at times, internally optimistic, constantly intrigued, a believer, prefer few over many, hopeless romantic, but a dreamer all-throughout...from the books I read, to the clothes I wear, to the places I’ve travelled, to the movies I watch, to the music I listen to, to the men I’ve loved...this is my world, take a seat, relax and

just live in it...just feel me!

"Passion make the world go around. Love makes it a safer place." -Ice T

10/09/2010

Lady in red

I've never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight...

I've never seen you shine so bright...
Or the highlights in your head that catch your eyes I have been blind,
But I hardly know this beauty by my side...
I've never seen you shine so bright you are amazing...
It took my breath away...
I have never had such a feeling...

Forest from the trees

I went for a walk a week ago,
I struggled to find my way back home,
I'm home now,
Safe, but not sound...


ATROCITY........

Apparently some porn agent really wants me to get back to blogging. KRYSTAL KANE/ADULT MODEL AVAILABLE FOR IMMEDIATE WORK:

Real Name: _________ *

Stage Name: Krystal Kane

Current Location: _____ *

Age: 23

10/08/2010

Annoyingly Abstract Tidbits

Let’s say, as Foucault did, that “capitalism” repressed all forms of sexuality outside of the context of procreative monogamy because sexual activity made use of energy that “capitalism” would rather have at its own disposal in the form of labor, and that procreative monogamous sexuality was only tolerated because it brought more labor power into the world. If “capitalism” has that kind of power (without having a central organizing/orchestrating force other than the shared interests of capitalists), then does it not stand to reason that “capitalism” reasserted its control over sexuality in the wake of the “sexual revolution” by coming to terms with the fact that humans were going to want to have illicit sex and creating a space in which that sex could occur, provided that it was commodified? Foucault made the argument that “capitalism” allowed illicit sex to occur only in the brothel, but I’m sure if he were alive he’d see the growth of the porn industry as capitalism finding a way to assimilate and mitigate the threat of the sexual revolution. My only problem with this whole formulation is the use of “capitalism” as a subject agent in a sentence, which makes the whole thing too simplistic. Maybe it makes more sense to say that “capitalists” saw their best interest in repressing non-procreative sex outside the marital chamber because the nuclear family did an excellent job of preserving the labor order that it needed to function in its original form, and thus that capitalists rather than capitalism saw the threat of the sexual revolution on the horizon and responded to it by trying to find a way to turn it into a product to sell to those who fomented it, thus sucking all of the power out of the movement and arrogating it to themselves.





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10/07/2010

Dream Catcher

 Understanding your dreams can greatly increase your knowledge of yourself and your life. However, interpreting your own dreams is very difficult because you will subconsciously skew the analysis towards what you want it to mean instead of what it actually means. Have you ever woken up from a really sweet dream and wished you knew what it meant? Of course, Einstein. Everyone has. I have a splendid idea send me your dream and I'll interpret it. I'll put the best ones on this page for other people to read.


guilty_pleasure2010
Sent: Thursday, September 5, 2010 3:55 PM
To: sweeetmelody@gmail.com
Subject: My Dream


My boyfriend and I have been together for a year and we’ve never had sex yet. However, last night I dreamed of boning a friend whom I find very attractive. In the dream he had a bigger penis than my boyfriend, and I kissed his penis. The dream was so real and I feel guilty whenever I think about it, but it keeps popping into my mind: So what does this mean please?


Please interpret this, I have no idea what the hell is wrong with me.

Best answer - You already admitted that you never engaged in sex with your boyfriend. That means you have the urge but not used it. However, as you thought about this attractive fellow, you dreamed having sex with him. Don't fight the feelings.No you will have sex with him someday. But you will be fine, it is only a dream.  Don't forget, it appears that you could use some sex. Plus admittedly your "dream man" has abigger penis? Very normal and very common. All is well!

sweeetmelody@gmail.com < sweeetmelody@ gmail.com >
Sent: Thursday, September 7, 2010 1:55 A.M
To: sweeetmelody@gmail.com
Subject: My Dream is...


There is this guy I feel virtually attracted to. I want him? I never met him or touched him. I see him in my dreams all the time. In my dream he rejects me. I gracefully accept his invitation to get lost. That is always when I wake up from this nightmare. Sad but true.


Please do not misinterpret this; I have a great idea that I should write or call him. I want to talk to him, what the hell is wrong with me??? He needs to know that I’m dreaming of his penis or at least know that I dream of him. But to be honest it's his intellect I dream about.... "Well maybe his penis a little bit".

Best answer - No comment.

Artifical Intelligence

Yesterday while I was driving home and listening to CBC radio, and this really interesting song was playing and I ran home to download it. The funny thing was by the time I sat down at the computer to search the song I forgot the name.

If you ask me what type of music I like I will most likely respond " I like all music". Instead my response should be "I appreciate al types of music". I genuinely do like all music.

Indie: Low self esteem, not very hard-working, kind or generous. However, creative.

Rock’n'roll: High self-esteem, very creative, hard-working and at ease with yourself, but not very kind or generous.

Hip-Hop: Class all on its own. There has been more controversy surrounding this music since the Watergate scandal. Excellent entrepreneurs, who are not givers. They are narcissistic. Not really creative, but are great pretenders. Nice!

Reggae: Pothead. Dreamer. Unrealistic.

Sometime creative, but typically eating and sleeping. They lack energy, and zeal. Excellent party goers

Techno: Hm. I don’t think it made the charts, although suffice to say repetition. Generally very bored, kind, realistic and witty.

Classical: High self-esteem, creative and at ease with yourself, but not outgoing.

Opera: High self-esteem, creative, gentle.

I actually found this on Danish National Television. A team of psychologists at the Heriot-Watt University in Scotland are behind a study linking people’s personality and their taste in music. I can’t really tell what I like most of the above seven categories of music, though I guess opera is my favourite.

From the above I can deduce that I’m certainly hardworking. Hm. Giggle. Creative. Somewhat really, you know! Not very kind? Oh my, and I thought I was such a kind person… Not outgoing. Hm, I categorically deny that and I know people who’d dispute that. Dreamer... Yes. I will never deny that, but I am awake and realising the dream. I always want to be Gentle. I’m totally at Ease with myself can’t you tell? Maybe not... Repitition is a good thing with respect to design. Keep in mind repetition with variation is interesting, without variation repetition can become monotonous. So I’m all for repetition. And so on and so forth. Also, I can think of a couple of people, mad about indie music and really, really hardworking!

The study also calls into question your intelligence (or lack thereof)? For example: If you're a fan of Beyonce, then you're probably kind of dumb. (I actually appreciate ‘some’ of her music, not all.) Just thought you'd like to know. Also, Madonna and Aerosmith listeners aren't the brightest lights on the Christmas tree either, so, if you're one of those, don't apply for Jeopardy. Ah now it’s all clear to me why they rejected me from appearing on the show. Just put on your headphones and accept the hard fact that there are some things - well, actually, many things - that you will never understand. The sooner you realize that, the happier you will be.

You see, a CalTech student named Virgil Griffith conducted a highly scientific study about how music tastes correlate with intelligence. By highly scientific, I mean he figured out college students' favorite music by looking at their Facebook profiles and compared that data to a college population's overall S.A.T. scores.

The New Yorker broke it down like this: Students who listened to pop stars like Beyonce and Lil Wayne are stupider than students who listen to Bob Dylan, Counting Crows, or Beethoven....
The list is an excellent instrument of provocation, especially because it seems a little, well, racist, or at least classist....

Interestingly enough, Billy Joel has the fifteenth-smartest preference population (average S.A.T. score of 1147), while jazz (that's right -- the entire genre) has the one-hundred-and-twenty-seventh (average S.A.T. score of 946). Led Zeppelin beats Weezer, and Weezer beats Ben Harper. The top three: Beethoven, Sufjan Stevens, and Counting Crows (hey, no one ever said that intelligence was the same thing as good taste). The bottom three: Beyonce, Lil Wayne, et al (hey, no one ever said intelligence was the same as popular success).

Griffith reveals the results of his research which includes a handy chart in which you can evaluate how smart you,your friends and family are.


However I totally agree with Lawrence Lessig (law professor at Stanford and Internet evangelist) that the music industry must find itself another leg to stand on, because the sharing of music on the Internet is the future and not even an army of lawyers will be able to stop it.

My own music tastes are very eclectic, so the chart tells me that I am simultaneously smart and dumb, which must be some kind of achievement in and of itself. Moreover if you are on this page reading this entry surely by now you might have figured this out. The music playing at the bottom of this page did not appear there by osmosis, I put it there.

The study doesn't really reveal what it means that I am obsessed with Prince (excuse me - I mean "SYMBOL"), but I can make assumptions. I'm kind of a stupid romantic kinky sexy pervert. But you see? I realize that; therefore, I am happy.

What about you?

Postscript...I'm going to download some Opera and Classical music this evening.

10/04/2010


Status Symbol

It’s the Fall semester of ‘2010 and I am excited. It’s not the dawn of a semester which excites me, nor the trees changing their leaves, or even the fact I will soon be moving. I’m excited because I have completed a total of 12 additional super duper credits. At my age I have almost completed enough units for a MEng in Project and Construction Management.

While a student at UBC I was named to the dean’s list twice, maintained a GPA of 3.7 and managed to get ‘A’s’ in two of Professor Vasilevichs’ classes. (If you have never had Vasilevich, getting an ‘A’ in even one of his classes means more than being on the dean’s list). Sorry dean.

Like a few graduates it’s taken me longer than expected to get here, but like all graduates it has taken some sacrifices, some sleep and some very hard work. So, I am excited. I am proud and I am relieved, but most importantly I am on my way to being a graduate student.

Well, at least one day in the future I will have the requisite credits needed to ultimately graduate. My account is ‘paid up’ and I have no financial obligation to the University. My academic performance is well above what is required to be ‘degree worthy.’ What more is there?

Last week was pure hell. Four exams back to back. I was thoroughly prepared but my nerves kicked into overdrive and I was breaking out into acne as though I was a sixteen year old in young love. It was ghastly. Suddenly without warning my mood begins to fluctuate, personality morphs into someone I don’t recognize. I mean I turn into super bitch. My temper goes haywire. Not pretty. Thank G-d exams are over.

You see, even after taking 23 credits at UBC, and after more than a dozen papers and numerous exams before my University will bestow upon me the moniker of graduate, the University wants to know if I can write an essay.

As the: “The Trustees of the UBC have directed that “all students entering the UBC Program… be required to demonstrate their proficiency with regard to writing skills as a requirement for graduation…”

WTF - Seriously? I was under the impression that’s what the classes, tests and papers were for.
The newsletter further states: “…the UBC faculty decided that at this institute students would meet the requirement by writing an acceptable test essay.”

I don’t know if I should be insulted, flattered or worried. Insulted that the very University that named me to the “Dean’s List” has the gall to tell me they do not think I can form a sentence. Flattered that the UBC Trustees actually believe I have the skills and fortitude required to cheat on every exam and paper I have written. (Wouldn’t it be easier to just study and write your own papers? Which is what I did). Worried because the degree that I will have is from an institution that believes its very own system is so flawed and shabby that I would be able to complete a degree with a 3.7 GPA and still not be able to write a coherent or grammatically correct sentence.

It is not only the students that should be insulted, but the faculty as well. Do the Trustees have such low regard for the caliber of their faculty that they feel it necessary to test the writing skills of their students? Wouldn’t any junior or senior who is unable to write a simple essay have been ‘weeded out’ by now? Maybe the teaching abilities of the professors should be tested.

Besides the embarrassment of attending a University that feels compelled to assure them that their graduate students can demonstrate a, “…proper use of English grammar, diction, and mechanics,” we are required to pay a $20.00 fee. According to UBC’s own numbers, the undergraduate student body in the fall of 2009 is numbered over 33,000. If even only half of these students take the test that’s over $660,000.00.

Now they may say the money is needed to pay those grading the essays who are, “…a panel of faculty readers…” and I agree, they should be paid. But I would have rather paid $20.00 more a year, or even a semester, to see more classes offered in my chosen...yada yada yada....
I just need a hug.