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FAITH LEAPED...

When to temple today. Pretty uneventful. Met some very kool people I actually liked. So next week I 'm invited out to their stables to ride one of their horse, break some bread ,and wash it down with some wine... mmmm yummy I can't wait. I hope my helmet arrives this week.

Reconnected with an old Gal-Pal. I read her the riot act.I think I may have fucked here ears  for two hours but lets face it I had a lot I needed her to know. I had a lot of questions for her.  Plus I mainly called to say: "How fucking dare you forget about me" but when I heard her voice I actually felt relieved. Relieved that I didn't have to send out the tracking dogs to find her AGAIN. For the most part she's fairly stable in all facets of her life except she enjoys moving without a forwarding address. She's done it twice in past 10 years and I hate not knowing. I liken it to when people ask ..."You didn't see that coming?" Well no Baby Einstein - if I did I would have gotten out of the way dumbass. Seriously she can pack up and without warning poof  be gone. I guess it proofs that we are social primates and we need each other no what we might think do and or say. In totality it turned out to be quite an credible conversation. 
I'm too tired I will expound on this later....

PRODICAL CHILDREN...

Seriously... Cuz, here the deal. I was feeling at a loss for things to do for my birthday. My best friend totally inspired me several weeks prior to my birthday when she gave me the super cool idea of doing Random Acts of Kindness in honour of my own birthday, and asking friends to join in the fun as a gift for my birthday. No one bit. But I was bitten by the bug, and I thought what harm could be done.


{You see where this is going, don’t you?}

So I spent an entire week doing 44 Random Acts of Kindness in honour of my 44 years of life.

1. I fed 2 parking meters.

2. I took food to the shelter.

3. I gave a hitchhiker a drive.

4. I bought my assistant lunch.

5. I paid for someone’s lottery ticket

6. I gave street person my sunglasses

7. I took out the trash for my neighbour

8. I brought a flower to my Aesthetician.

9. I handed a bottle of water out the car window to jogger.

10. I asked a very macho dude if I could pump his gas for him.

11. I bought a packet of cigarettes for my apartment manager.

12. I bought a get well card for my neighbour because she was sick.

13. I bought soil, seeds and growing container for a fellow neighbour.

14. I bought donuts for the entire office staff at my physiotherapy clinic.

15. At the grocery store I paid for a young boy’s lunch at the deli counter.

16. I dropped in on my former teacher with a coffee just so I could see the smile on his face.

17. I unloaded an older couple groceries and casually walked away.

18. I asked a tenant if I could put a wash in for them and paid for the two loads to wash and dry.

19. I cleaned up all the trash outside my apartment building.

20. I picked up a chocolate bar for my friend and showed up for a quick visit.

21. Returned grocery carts back inside the store from the parking lot for shoppers.

22. Inconspicuously dropped coins on the ground as I walked pass a homeless person.

23. I handed out Tootsie Pops to children (asked parents permission first of course!).

24. I bought a 1$20 gift card for groceries and turned around and handed it to woman in line behind me. I wasn’t prepared for the look on her face. I immediately left before I started to cry

25. I walked up to a family eating lunch at a local restaurant, placed a gift card on their table and walked out

26. Dropped off a hand written thank you note and doughnuts at the police station.

27. I took a large bag of clothes to the local homeless shelter.

28. I left 3 Tim Horton’s coffee gift cards for a coffee on random seats.

29. I paid for the woman’s coffee behind us in line at Starbucks.

30. I tucked happy notes in car doors in parking lot wishing people a good day full of God’s blessings.

31. I bought a Mylar balloon with a ribbon on is and gave it to a child.

32. I went to my friends house and read bedtime stories to their children.

33. Left quarters at a Laundromat.

34. I wrote a letter to old friend the old fashioned way and mailed it

35. I walked down the street into McDonald’s and asked the cashier to use my free coupon on next person in drive through line.

36. I took pictures of two tourists in front of Hard Rock Cafe and a family in the park.

37. I took plates of cookies to 2 neighbours I don’t really know and spent some time talking with them (no, I did not bake them myself but no one seemed to care).

38. I knelt down and gathered a newspaper that a woman whose hands were full dropped at the grocery store.

39. I left a small treat with a note of thanks for the mailman.

40. I called and left an I love you mom message of her work phone.

41. I gave a dozen hot doughnuts to a crew working on the power lines.

42. I bought a stuffed animal and handed it a child as I was exiting the drugstore.

43. I totally surprised my friend Oneika and bought her two shirts for her birthday.

44. I cooked diner for a friend.

While these were random acts, these are things we can do each day for someone. It was overwhelming but you do get some form of self gratification from this (if you know anything about me I love gratification) but I thoroughly enjoyed the expressions the smiles, hugs and thank you. When I told people who asked why I was doing this they were shocked. One lady actually made me cry…(bo ho ho) but it was tears of joy that my birthday was just a few days away.

Now let the party begin and it did. Unfortunately I cannot post all the images here because it kinda got out of hand.

Me, Mamadou, Maya

Me, Deidre, Maya, Toya

Me, Deidre, Maya, Toya

IF THIS WORLD WERE MINE HE'D BE HERE WITH ME...

It's been just over a week since Danny passed away. I've been very busy and somewhat distracted from thinking about my friend’s death. I'm having a real fuck of hard time today controlling my tears. It seems my emotions have gone apeshit on me. I didn't realize it would affect me this way. Even though he was married with a loving wife and children that absolutely adored him, I loved him too. I cannot imagine the grief they must feel today. The distance between us never changed we way we felt about each other as friends. The shock I feel is so overwhelming. This is relentless. When will this stop? At 2:00p.m I must be in the gym. It’s my first day back after one whole week. Danny was always working on his abs or something. I'm thinking that is what has triggered this feeling of sadness. Because an hour ago I was too excited to go. The excitement has suddenly turned to melancholy. But you know what I am going to go and work my ass off in honour of my friend. I have a personal trainer and he's so funny, I'm sure things will be fine. He always makes me laugh if nothing else.

LEAP OF FAITH

I believe some of the most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt from within. Friday night I simply made a deal with myself to attend temple. It's strange  because it had been about eight months since I had been to temple. So yesterday I woke at 730 am and true to my word I showered, ate dressed and went. Not to appease G-d? Not because it is ingrained in me. Not for the fear of hell. But it just  because it felt so so right to do so. I was going nuts in my head with all the 'crazy' that has taken place in the past few months. Not to mention my friend passing. I needed a place to think for a few moments. However, concentration of mind is absolutely necessary for establishing union with oneself. This is a difficult thing to do whether one attempts to worship God in manifested form or in the form which is not manifested. I loved it. I am so glad and happy I did.

...Season of Our Liberation

The eight-day festival of Passover is celebrated in the early spring, from the 15th through the 22nd of the Hebrew month of Nissan. It commemorates the emancipation of the Israelites from slavery in ancient Egypt. And, by following the rituals of Passover, we have the ability to relive and experience the true freedom that our ancestors gained. So the story goes …After many decades of slavery, during which time the Israelites were subjected to backbreaking labor and unbearable horrors, G d saw the people's distress and sent Moses to Pharaoh with a message: …"the ten devastating plagues, afflicting them and destroying everything from their livestock to their crops. While doing so, G d spared the Children of Israel, "passing over" their homes—hence the name of the holiday. The resistance was broken, and he virtually chased his former slaves out of the land. The Israelites left in such a hurry, in fact, that the bread they baked as provisions for the way did not have time to rise. Many thousands of adult males, plus many more woman and children, left Egypt on that day, and began the trek to Mount Sinai and their birth as G d's chosen people. Thus Passover is divided into two parts. 1) The first two days and last two days (that commemorate the splitting of the Red Sea) are full-fledged holidays. Holiday candles are lit at night, and Kiddush and sumptuous holiday meals are enjoyed on both nights and days. We don't go to work, drive, write or switch on or off electric devices. We are permitted to cook and to carry outdoors. b) The middle four days are called Chol Hamoed, semi-festive "intermediate days," when most forms of work are permitted. To commemorate the unleavened bread that the Israelites ate when they left Egypt, we don't eat or even retain in our possession any "chametz" from midday of the day before Passover until the conclusion of the holiday - any food or drink that contains even a trace of wheat, barley, rye, oats, spelt or their derivatives and wasn't guarded from leavening or fermentation. This includes bread, cake, cookies, cereal, pasta, and most alcoholic beverages. Moreover, almost any processed food or drink can be assumed to be chametz unless certified otherwise. Ridding our homes of chametz is an intensive process. It involves a full-out spring-cleaning search-and-destroy mission during the weeks before Passover, and culminates with a ceremonial search for chametz on the night before Passover, and then a burning ceremony on the morning before the holiday. Chametz that cannot be disposed of can be sold to a non-Jew for the duration of the holiday. Seders which really the highlight of Passover observed only on the first two nights of the holiday. The Seder is a fifteen step, family oriented, tradition and ritual packed feast. The focal points of the Seder are:

• Eating matzah.

• Eating bitter herbs—to commemorate the bitter slavery endured by the Israelites.

• Drinking four cups of wine or grape juice—a royal drink to celebrate our newfound freedom.

• The recitation of the Haggadah, a liturgy that describes in detail the story of the Exodus from Egypt. The Haggadah is the fulfillment of the biblical obligation to recount  mostly to your children the story of the Exodus on the night of Passover.

There's much more but I just don't have time but the central idea is there... Happy Passover! Happy Easter!

... LIES WITHIN

"I've never seen a smiling face that was not beautiful.

The most beautiful view is the one I share with you."

IT'S ALL IN A LOOK!

GREAT WONDERS

3 PASSIONS...

Three passions have governed my life: The longings for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of humankind. Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
 In the union of love I have seen in a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined. With equal passion I have sought knowledge.

SPIRITUALITY IN A STRANGE TIME

I t is believed by many that humanity is on the brink of a quantum leap in consciousness. Enlightened people are preparing for this in their own ways, realizing that it is time to awaken to our origins and our potential to take responsibility for ourselves and for the Earth. We believe that Twin Flames (Twin Souls) have a special contribution to make; their coming together in numbers at this time has a reason at both the individual and planetary level. When Twin Flames join, they generate a vortex of energy that may be seen as a light in the darkness of society’s consciousness. In completing each other, the whole becomes greater than the sum of its parts: the two create three and the third is a very potent force, a force of light and love at an extremely pure level.